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CHAOTICA - Disruptive (2015) Album

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Lyrics

  • 1. Anarchy

    Have you felt like you're trapped in a small cage?
    Working hard just to make minimum wage,
    All the while you're just building up rage.
    "Get in line!" "Don't make a sound!"
    "Follow rules!" "Keep your head down!"
    Ever think that maybe there's a new way?
    To make these people listen to what you say?
    To take their precious authority away?
    "Time to change!" "Let's tear it down!"
    "Burn the system to the ground!"

    I don't care what they say,
    They cannot make me obey!
    Anarchy! Come and get some Anarchy!

    Their stupid rules don't mean a damn thing,
    Nobody gave them a crown or made them a king.
    Lets take back what's ours and let true freedom ring!
    "The time is now!" "It's time to fight!"
    "Do not go gently in the night!"
    We're gonna set their whole kingdom on fire,
    Destroy the foundation of their empire,
    Obliterate propaganda of the Liar.
    "Don your mask!" "Print your gun!"
    "Revolutions start with one!"

    I don't care what they say,
    They cannot make me obey!
    Anarchy! Come and get some Anarchy!

    I don't care if they agree,
    They've got no power over me!
    Anarchy! Time to make some Anarchy!

    I don't care what they say,
    They cannot make me obey!

    All music and lyrics Copyright © 2015 by CHAOTICA. All rights reserved.
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  • 2. Shadows

    She wipes the tears out of her eyes, And then she gets into the shower.
    There's bruises on her thighs,
    She's in there scrubbing for an hour.
    She can't remove the smell,
    A crimson trail goes down the drain.
    This can't be Hell,
    Not even Hell can manufacture this much pain.

    She drys herself, she combs her hair,
    She's got the courage of a soldier.
    She puts on clothes, and then she swears
    That someday when she's older,
    She's going to disappear
    And melt away in all her dreams,
    And stop this endless night of violent tears
    And stifled silent screams.

    She blames herself when he's mad,
    She thinks she's done something bad,
    She thinks it's normal to be sad.

    We are the shadows of the abused,
    Of the neglected, the beaten and bruised.
    We are the misfits, we are the lost,
    We are the broken, we paid the cost.

    She lays in bed, her eyes are closed,
    She pretends that she's fast asleep.
    The door is cracked,
    A silhouette enters the room
    And starts to creep.
    She holds her breath, she squints her eyes,
    She bites her lip, gives off a tear.
    She tries to slip away to somewhere
    In her mind and disappear.

    She feels a hand over her mouth,
    She knows she's not to make a sound.
    She reaches for her teddy bear,
    But Teddy's knocked onto the ground.
    Every second feels like hours,
    Every night goes on for weeks.
    She tries to wipe the stench of cigarettes
    And whisky off her cheeks.

    Why do you hurt her inside?
    You are supposed to provide!
    You piece of trash, you need to die!
    I hope you die!!!

    We are survivors and we have a choice,
    We have the right to let out our voice.
    We won't go quietly into the night,
    We're here to stay and we'll stay to fight!

    I think its time we find a new solution,
    A revolution, we're done with this war.
    I think its time we take back what is ours,
    Let's heal the scars, we won't take this anymore!

    We are the shadows of the abused,
    We are the empty shell of the used.
    We are the damaged, alone in the crowd,
    We’ve got things to say and we’ll say them out loud.

    We are discarded but we still have dreams,
    We cry on the inside and we hide our screams.
    But we escaped, we survived, and we're free,
    It's time for a change, let's do things differently.

    We are the shadows of the abused!
    We are the shadows of the abused!

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  • 3. Liberation Nation

    In California, if you drop nuclear bombs, you get a fine.
    In Indiana can't eat body parts on Fridays, that's a crime.
    In Pennsylvania it's illegal to sweep dirt under the rug,
    And in Ohio, near a church, it's illegal to kill a bug.
    In Oklahoma if you make a face at a dog you get jail.
    In Arizona driving backwards is illegal in Glendale.
    In Massachusetts it's illegal for your girl to be on top.
    In Arkansas don't honk your horn after 9:00 at a sandwich shop.

    Can you see our disaffection?
    Time is now for insurrection!
    Can't be fixed by an election,
    All we want is change!

    Springfield, Illinois prohibits midget tossing in a bar,
    And in Hawaii you're required to own a boat, not a car.
    South Carolina you can only tell fortunes with a permit.
    In Texas notice is required for crimes you plan to commit.
    In North Dakota it's against the law to wear a hat and dance.
    In Idaho you're not allowed to give drivers a nasty glance.
    North Carolina annuls marriages if he can't keep it hard.
    Michigan will let you have sex in a car only in your yard.

    We don't want your legislation!
    What we need is liberation!
    We can build a better nation!
    All we want is change!

    Can you see our disaffection?
    Time is now for insurrection!
    Can't be fixed by an election,
    All we want is change!

    We don't want your legislation!
    What we need is liberation!
    We can build a better nation!
    All we want is change!

    All music and lyrics Copyright © 2015 by CHAOTICA. All rights reserved.
    Unauthorized duplication or distribution is a violation of law.
  • 4. Goodbye Turquoise

    Hello Turquoise
    I followed the sound of the song you sung.
    Like a siren on the shore,
    You lured me in with your silver tongue.
    "Take a bite," you said.
    And your nectar was so sweet.
    Then I got dizzy in my head,
    And fell to your feet...

    Hello Turquoise,
    Hello to the yellow sky.
    Hello lime green clouds,
    And colored fireflies.

    Dearest Turquoise,
    We bit off more than we could chew,
    Where do we go now from here?
    It's both our fault, I don't blame you.
    Are you really my muse?
    Or just the devil in disguise?
    Yellow clouds or sulfur in the skies?

    Hello Turquoise,
    Hello to the yellow sky.
    Hello lime green clouds,
    And colored fireflies.

    Goodbye Turquoise,
    Goodbye to the yellow sky.
    Goodbye lime green clouds,
    And goodbye fireflies, goodbye.

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  • 5. Dystopia

    You fill the ballot out
    And drop it in the slot to cast your vote,
    You hope the guy who gets elected
    Reads the letters that you wrote.
    He gets in office and he promises to represent your voice,
    You think the system works
    Because most people agreed with your choice.

    But then big players with big checkbooks
    Attend meetings with your man,
    They funded his campaign and now they're
    Wanting him to change the plan.
    The "special interests" of the giants
    Get written into the bill,
    And now we watch our rights get taken away by Capital Hill.

    Welcome to State-controlled nation, in Dystopia.
    You don't get representation, in Dystopia.

    The law gets passed and this is not what the majority desired.
    One by one, they take your rights away
    Every time this transpires.
    Take your money then they
    Spend it on things that you don't agree,
    They take your guns away
    And then build more for their military.

    They took your privacy,
    It's legal for the government to spy.
    They started PRISM, NSA, the CIA, and FBI.
    They take your money from your bank account
    If you don't pay their tax.
    Did we vote on that? I'd like to know how that
    Slipped through all the cracks!

    You can't have arms or self defense, in Dystopia.
    And you can't have self-governance, in Dystopia!

    All music and lyrics Copyright © 2015 by CHAOTICA. All rights reserved.
    Unauthorized duplication or distribution is a violation of law.
  • 6. Eulogy

    He was a boy, 15 years old,
    Big boned, but his heart was pure gold.
    He played the tuba in high school,
    Other kids didn't think he was cool.

    He was that kid always picked last,
    When they chose teams in his gym class.
    They knocked his books out of his hands,
    Because he marched in the school band.

    They poured his drink down his T-shirt,
    They did not care how much he hurt.
    They taped a sign on his book bag
    That said "Wide load - I'm a huge fag."

    He was just a boy, just 15 years old,
    He had a big heart that was made of gold.
    He played the tuba in his high school band,
    He was the type who always lent a hand.

    He went down the hall and hid inside,
    The school bathroom where he sat and cried.
    Some mean kids came in and pushed him down,
    On a toilet that was stained with brown.

    They dunked his head in the toilet bowl,
    His face was plugging the dirty hole.
    They grabbed their cell phones and they took pics,
    When they left they posted them for kicks.

    Then he stood up on the toilet seat.
    Took his belt, his pants fell to his feet.
    Wrapped the belt 'round his neck and the stall,
    Took one last step so that he would fall...

    At his funeral his mother gave him a kiss,
    She read his eulogy and it went something like this:

    When he would come home he would tell me that,
    Some boys at his school would call him fat.
    But he prayed to God up until the end,
    To forgive those boys they were his friends.

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  • 7. Further I Fall

    I risked it all to get what I desired,
    Let my guard down, broke the rules,
    And walked through fire
    For you 'cause I adored you.

    In the end, after the storm,
    Nothing mattered.
    We left a wake of
    Broken promises that shattered
    Those who we both knew.

    Why do we hurt those that we love?
    Why do we harm those we disposed of?
    Why do we break the hearts of those who
    Give everything to me and to you?

    Yes, I regret some things that we did.
    I regret how we lied, I regret how we hid.
    If we never touched there could still be
    The friendship we lost between you and me.

    Now that you're gone, and I'm far away,
    It's for the best, it's just better this way.
    One thing I learned from this mistake,
    Are all of the things for granted I take.

    The more that I try,
    The further I fall.
    There's not much to lose,
    'Til we lose it all.
    The harder I cry,
    The less that I tear.
    The more that I sin,
    The more that I fear.

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    Unauthorized duplication or distribution is a violation of law.
  • 8. The One to Blame

    You are the one who called my name,
    I was like a moth to the flame.
    I followed your lead from the start,
    In retrospect, it wasn't smart.
    But I got caught up in your game.

    I should've listened to my gut, “Don't go down that rabbit hole!"
    I should've left that closed door shut, "You're about to lose control!"
    Everything after is a blur, Your poison doesn't have a cure.
    I'll never get back what you stole.

    You are the one who broke my world to pieces,
    All the words you spoke infected like diseases,
    Everything you promised was as empty as your actions because,
    You're the one to blame.
    You are the one who looked me straight in my eyes,
    But every single promise that you made me were lies.
    The only thing I ever wanted from you was
    The truth and that's why you're the one to blame.

    You made me believe it was real,
    You showed me I could learn to feel.
    Sometimes I thought you felt it too,
    Thought I saw a soul when I looked in you,
    That soul was mine you tried to steal.

    You sold an artificial heart! (I never once had lied to you!)
    Did you have this planned from the start?
    (Toss me aside as soon as you were through.)
    I just don't know what I had done, To aid and abet your hit and run,
    What part of your fiction was true?

    You are the reason for all we never had, You're the one to blame.
    All that we could've been before it all went bad, You're the one to blame.

    Now as I am looking back, I realize that... "I'm" the one to blame.
    I should not have gone that far, 'Cause it changed who we are, and
    I'm the one to blame.

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    Unauthorized duplication or distribution is a violation of law.
  • 9. Tear It Down

    We're all marching up the hill to the ledge,
    Blindly following those we put in front of the line.
    They start to fall when they arrive at the edge,
    The system starts to collapse,
    Destined to fail by design.

    Look past the suits,
    They're all just thugs of the State,
    They hold the dollars so they
    Make all the rules of the game.
    They force us to accept the lies they create,
    Attempts to govern ourselves have been in vain.

    We've got to find a new way
    To fix this broken machine,
    We've got to tear it all down!
    (Got to tear it down!)
    We've got to throw it away
    And then destroy this regime,
    Lets burn it all to the ground!

    Hidden agendas become the new law of the land,
    Forcing masses to adapt, conform, and obey.
    A few rebels, people willing to fight, take a stand,
    Men with guns arrive and blow the poor bastards away.

    Obey their law or you're gonna be locked up or shot,
    The very same laws that our leaders did not give us say,
    You think this story's from another country... it's not,
    Take a closer look inside the U.S.A.!

    All music and lyrics Copyright © 2015 by CHAOTICA. All rights reserved.
    Unauthorized duplication or distribution is a violation of law.
  • 10. Disaster

    There she goes,
    She’s slipped again.
    She's been known to get like this,
    Every now and then.

    She fills her head with clouds,
    Runs away with Mary Jane.
    She tries to block it out,
    And numb her pain.

    She's a beautiful disaster,
    Often times she's plastered,
    Medicating herself away.
    She tries to hide from her remorse inside,
    And all the tears she cried in her dismay.

    She's not well,
    When she's in her mind.
    She's been though Hell,
    Thinks it's her fault she left him behind.
    She bears guilt like a cross,
    She blames herself 'cause she survived.
    She hurts 'cause she still mourns the loss
    Of whom she can't revive.

    No, it is not her fault,
    Her self-assault,
    She is missing her soul.
    I hope she finds what she needs,
    So she can be whole.

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    Unauthorized duplication or distribution is a violation of law.
  • 11. The One Who Destroyed

    You put all your trust in me, then you believed all my lies.
    You gave me your honesty, as I wore my disguise.
    You only wanted to make something that we could both share.
    I thought it was a mistake, I blamed you and that's not fair.

    And then I got so upset, all I could do then was run.
    I did some things I regret, hate myself for what I've done.
    You didn't deserve that pain,
    You didn't deserve my lies,
    You didn't deserve the blame,
    Or all the tears in your eyes.

    I am the one who betrayed you,
    When I killed your heart.
    I am the one who destroyed you,
    When we fell apart.

    I felt so trapped and afraid, I didn't know where to turn.
    Forced you in this masquerade, and for my sin I will burn.
    I can't be sorry enough, for all your faith that has died,
    For all the nights that were tough,
    For all the weeks that you cried.

    But every hour you've stayed, I am indebted to you.
    For all the trust I betrayed,
    For the things I can't undo.
    I'll never understand why, you have stayed with me this long.
    You are still here by my side, even though I have done wrong.

    But now I'm gonna fix it all,
    I'm gonna get back what we lost.
    I'm gonna make it up to you somehow,
    For the pain I caused.

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  • 12. End of Everything

    Self-destructive tendencies,
    We're gonna undo everything
    That we set out to build.
    Slaves to our dependencies,
    We still suck at the breast of the
    Mother we tortured and killed.
    We have become our own worst enemies,
    The prophesy of our downfall
    Becomes fulfilled.

    Self-righteous accomplishments,
    Our empire of crap built on
    Temples of our greed.
    Our delusional omniscience,
    We revel in our fallacy,
    As we bite the hand that feeds.
    Misdirected confidence,
    Our invincibility breaks away
    As we start to bleed.

    All this is unsustainable,
    This house of cards is breakable,
    We thought we were unshakable,
    This is the end of everything!

    We all ignored the warning signs,
    We kept on crossing all the lines,
    We kept committing the same crimes,
    Welcome to the...
    The End of Everything!

    We must stop this insanity,
    Before it becomes reality!

    All music and lyrics Copyright © 2015 by CHAOTICA. All rights reserved.
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Album Credits

All songs Produced by Danny Chaotic
All music & lyrics written, performed, recorded, arranged, & mixed by Danny Chaotic.
Lead guitar performed & recorded by Gary Toth & written/arranged by Gary Toth & Danny Chaotic
Chaotica is:
Danny Chaotic: vocals, rhythm guitars, bass, drums, keyboards & synths, programming
Gary Toth: lead guitar
Recorded at Cold Fusion Records, San Tan Valley, AZ
Mastered by Reuben Cohen at Lurssen Mastering, Hollywood, CA
Photography by Sue Tatterson (www.spiritsoftheabandoned.com)
Album Graphic Design & Layout by Danny Chaotic